I'm not sure what kind of assistance you're asking for; but if you cry out to God, He promises to hear you. If you seek Him, He promises He will let you find him. Dig into your Bible and find other believers to study and worship with. You'll be in my prayers.
I, too, not sure what kind of assitance you're seeking, however, God gives you a brand new sunrise every day, filled witj opportunities for a rich, full life. I envision a sunrise and I see the face of God upon the horizon reaching forth His hand encouraging me to follow His way, His love, His forgiveness and His blessings. I can feel nothing but gratitude, peace and love for God. With God, His word and promises tucked securely in my heart, I can never be "off faith". . Even in times of confusion, the circumstances of the day, health issues, even a traffic jam, all I need to do is envision a sunrise and I'm flooded with peace.
Thanks and may God be with you and your family, I've been trying not to by going to church these few days and it really kept me busy. Glory be to God, Please stay in touch.
It happens to the very best of us. Repent, find some brothers who will keep you accountable, and move forward. I pray God will help you in your journey.