Fasting****
Hello, I've recently just put a post on my struggling relationship with Jesus C. But, my initial reason for posting was to seek help with my attempt at fasting. I say attempt because I feel like I've failed. I decided to fast during my work hours, so that would be eating breakfast and dinner and skipping lunch and snacks though out the day. However, I my boss made sandwiches that she insisted everyone try and everyone did try. By then I was starving, and did quite know how to respond..."oh I'm fasting?" First of all, I thought no one is supposed to know that one is fasting, 2ndly I wasn't really prepared for the wide-eyed stares from my co-workers, or their 101 and questions. I ate to sandwiches (they were really small not that that matters). And even before that, I had been rushing to work and through my weak moment of anxiety, I saw a passerby smoking and of course, I bummed a cigarette of 'em. And today, I ate three or four pieces of grilled tofu from one my students, and smoked while waiting for the bus on the way home. The day started off terribly, work was even worse, and feelings of failure and guild, brought on a terrible waive of despair...and I couldn't take it. Instead of leaning God for forgiveness, mercy, and help....I just asked someone for a cigarette. How am I to go on from here?
I honestly don't see a way out...I feel like I am going to be stuck in this struggle forever.....
I honestly don't see a way out...I feel like I am going to be stuck in this struggle forever.....
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Permalink Reply by allforhim on -
Keep pressing on! We are tested whenever we set our hearts to do something. Have a game plan ready when confronted with temptation and PRAY! Right there, in your head so you know how to answer. Perhaps anwering truthfully will spur a conversation about the Lord. We are not to go around bragging and prideful that we are fasting, but we can quietly say we are fasting and praying over a specific problem or person in our life and just move on. One way fasting is made, somewhat easier is by consuming fruit juice initially when you start, it helps for our stomachs not to feel so empty. I have started and failed many times, but I have also started and succeeded as well. Keep seeking the Lord in all you do and He will give you the strength that you need to overcome! Press on dear sister! Blessings! Andrea
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Permalink Reply by Vivian on
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Hello Angela,
I too have recently tried this fasting in my search for a closer relationship to our Lord. Twice I tried it and once had dramatic results but the second time none! Here's what I think made the difference.
The first time I did it was on a day off work where I was alone and could do what I pleased. I sought God in one way or the other most of the day. I started the day with prayer for ages. I read my bible and sung to praise and worship music and just generally "hung out" with the Lord. It turned out to be the most amazing experience because I wasn't long into the prayers when I felt the presence of the Lord very strongly for a long time. So much so that I didn't want to be interrupted for anything. I asked the Lord not to let anyone come to my house unless it was His specific will because it was our time.
In the afternoon when I read my bible it was as though He had opened my eyes big time. I had two or three revelations on every page that I read. I wished I had started reading it earlier in the day!
The second time I was not nearly as dedicated. I tried it while I was at work and so my focus was mostly on work rather than on God. I believe this made all the difference.
Both times I drank water, coffee and orange juice but no food. I believe however that it is not so much the lack of food but the seeking God part that makes the difference. The fasting is simply saying "Lord I want your presence in my life even more than I want food".
Hope this helps you and blesses you in your search.
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