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- Background or Hometown
- Massachussetts
- Relationship Status:
- Married
- About Me:
- Living greatful in HIS mercy and grace!
My Life Story
Yes, I am a born again Christian. In LOVE with the LORD and ready to let you know how I have come to know him. In August of 2006, I had lost everything, my apartment, my job, and my boyfriend. Everything seemed so impossible, I felt alone, trapped, rejected and depressed. At the time, I was suffering Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) diagnosed by a therapist, from witnessing a horrifying murder of 2004. I had to take pills of all kinds to stop making me believe that someone was trying to kill me and from having horrible panic attacks. God was trying with me, giving me all types of opportunities to turn to him, God in his mercy even saved me many times from death's own grip. In the meantime, I looked at things with an attitude of, "Is there something wrong with me? It feels like everything I try to do fails!" I even asked God, if he wanted me to go crazy. Why did he let me go through all these things? The same year I also miscarried my one and only unborn baby of 2 months. Then, months later totaled my car, rolling over 4 times and landing on the roof of the car. People in my life even thought that I had bad luck or maybe I was cursed or something. I felt desperate, was broken and no-one had the answers, no-one knew what to say to me, no-one could relate to what I was going through except for one. That one was Jesus, Is Jesus and will always be Jesus. After what had happened my mother decided to take me in. In a very small one bedroom apartment, using the living room/dining room, as my bedroom, where I would live there till this current day. Here is where things start to happen. I ........
I decided that it was time to confront the world get out of my safe cocoon and start facing my fears. By entering a career school, I would have to do what normal people do that meant driving places and meeting new people. Things seemed to go well I was getting good grades and had a little click at school. Time was ticking away and I felt a strong desire to go back to church I knew I needed God in my life but was not sure where to look for him. Therefore, I started to watch the Christian channels on television and that started to administer to me. I started to read Christian books and listen to Christian radio stations I even started to read the bible but I knew I needed more. I needed to belong to a Godly congregation. I needed to confess my sins and start new life. I needed to be born again! You know there is someone that does not want you to know the truth, one that wants you to stay stuck, have negative thoughts and even do the unforgivable, commit suicide. In which I knew but I started to realize that the more I looked for God the more fear I had, I couldn’t go to sleep I was always an insomniac but it was getting worse. One night I started to go to sleep and was having a nightmare. It felt all too real; it was as if I really was living it. My body was quivering with fear and I knew that something was not right. I started to follow someone in the dream someone I thought was a small little girl but ended in a big building that was dark. I was all alone the small little girl started to look more like a creature and began floating in the air, next crawling on the floor it was abnormal, and I knew that I wanted to get out of this dream. I was having a hard time getting out of the dream and started to cry out Jesus please help me. Jesus please save me. And instantly I was out of the dream got up from my bed and started to cry out I need you!!! I need you Jesus. With desperation, I got out of my bed and started to call out to Jesus and ask for forgiveness. I felt, I needed God to talk to me directly, I needed to know what to do, I needed his guidance. Therefore, I grabbed The Holy Bible, the word of God and started to pray, please speak to me. And so I opened bible and the book of Hebrews was at my view, started to read chapter after chapter and as I was reading God words were piercing into my soul like a sword of God I felt that God was rebuking me while telling me how much he loved me all along. I had the answer, I knew of God’s love. When I was 16 years old I converted myself to Christ and I learned about the bible and knew first hand of God’s love he blessed me so much and used me numerous times He would speak to me often using prophets or his word. I knew of God and his seed was planted in me once when I was a child. I felt so many emotions all at the same time. I wanted God to forgive my sinful ways I wanted God to know how much I love HIM and needed Him and how much I knew he loved me it was like a veil was lifted from my eyes and now I could truly see. I could see how much I failed God, how I pushed him away. See God promises in his word that he will never leave us; He will never forsake us; He will never let us go. He promises that no one or nothing can take us out of his grip. That is how much he loves, cares, and gives us opportunities to make things right with him.
- age
- 34
- hobbies:
- Bible teacher for kids. Read the bible. Exercise and tv.
- favorite music:
- Christian contemporary, classics and gospel.
- favorite movies & tv shows:
- Christian tv and home improvement shows.
- favorite books & bible verses:
- The bible Joshua 1:6-7
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- Christian friends
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- http://www.myspace.com/388527802
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Brother Cary
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Take Care Sanjiv
I want to ask that I am trying to find my way. Any ideas ? how did you find yours?
let me know what you think , bye for now sanjiv
Giving Back
The Punch line
If you read nothing more than this of this article, then the punch line is :I wish to give my life back to the lord, as he is the one that has saved it a number of times throughout my life and I never noticed, until I followed him. I owe him more than I can say, and I realise that now, if my life going forward is to do no more than glorify his name each day, then each day I pray to thank him for my step and my breath as he is the one that have saved both. My step is to follow him and my breath is to speak his words.
How did I get there?
I do believe that Christ did come to save us, and what happened is true.
For the past 37 years , I was a Hindu that also believed in Sikhism, but still a good person that had followed some of the ways of Christ by mistake. I had grown up knowing the lord’s pray from the age of 7/8, and going to a school where lovely Christian songs where sang, to which I had as a Hindu taught my children.
The lord was always there, I did not see it. In 1997, we holidayed in Cypress, I thought nothing of it at the time. Our next flight holiday was too Malta, where we stayed at St.Pauls bay, I was pedalled a story about a saint that was shipwrecked on the Island, again I thought nothing of it. Then, when we returned, everything changed for the worst.
A friend of mine could see the stress of the changes on me, she suggested that I attend a church session. Knowing no one else I asked my brother to come too. The first time I set foot in the Southall Church of God, it was to see my friend get baptized. .
However, I did not feel her getting baptized, but me. There was a lot of energy that evening and from what I saw and felt I knew I would be back. I started to come on a regular basis and to integrate more and a kind hearted Christian, now my children’s god father, gave me two bibles a children’s version and an adult’s one.
It was later in the bible that confirmed to me the last journey of St.Paul who travelled to both Cypress and then later shipwrecked on Malta.
In Genesis chapter 1, it says that the lord is hovering above, he always has been in my life, it was then that I realised. Going on from here, my struggles & situations and worsened, not of my doing but by circumstances thrown at me. On the 23rd January 2008, I was cycling back from work and my cycle chain snapped, I fell badly but luckily on the pavement. Then a voice came to me to tell me to stand up, so I did so, and walked on for another mile. The next day I fell down the stairs as I rushed to get my children to school. I had to attend physiotherapy for sometime, where the therapist could not believe I had damaged my leg like this from a fall as it was bruised all over including on the inside of the leg from top to bottom.
The lord came to then to renew my faith as everyday I pray now to thank him for that day as without him I would not be able to walk. Similarly follow on from this I caught an extreme cough, so much so that each time I cough I could not breathe. Again it was the lord to come save me.
Added to pray of thanks for walking in his footsteps it is to also thank him for the ability to breathe and inspire others to be thankful to breathe again. Each day it is to give something back however small.
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